3rd times a charm

So for those of you who know me, and have been talking to me throughout this process... know the constant stress that has come to me with school. When I was in the 11th grade the classes were really hard and at that time I had no german so I had no chance of learning anything. I was than moved on to the 9th grade where the classes were good but the students were all going through what I like to call the "growing up phase" so they were all sort of connected at the hip and not really wanting me there. I guess the days just sort wore me down, and each day it was worse.

Normally when you get a new kid in school... at first people are intrested in this kid , than the kid feels out of place sort of because they are in a new enviroment but eventually this feeling wears down and the kids just accept this new kid and things to back to normal... well not for me I went through all the phases I just never went back to normal. At first kids showed some intrest in me talking to me every once in awhile and than they lost interest and thats when they pretty much discovered they just didnt want me there. I have friends in the 11th grade but I never get to see them until breaks and even than its only for 20 minutes or so and than back to class. I felt hopeless because I talked to everyone about it... family, my host family, my friends here, exchange students, and I was asking them all for advice. I talked to the rotary programm here and at first they just made things worse, I than talked to the one at home but they were at a loss because they couldnet help me. It felt like I was alone and I would always be stuck in the same situatoin. I got to the point where I was one conformation e-mail away from going home in 2 weeks. I than changed my mind... well more as found something to be more upset at ( dont worry (person) I forgive you for being harsh).

This Monday I finally came to my breaking point. After settign my stuff down in my seat and leaving the class room for two mintues. I came back in and found that not only had my stuff been moved but some of it was on the floor just thrown over the table... and there were no chairs... and I was not standing during a lesson. Thats when I pretty much went off the hook. Have you ever seen those Beta fish that are so pretty and nice and calm but as soon as you stick one beta bowl next to another both fish instantly puff up... well thats how I was. I didnt puff up but I was a pretty mad beta. I left the class and walked down to my counselor of Rotarys work. My counselor told me I could always talk to him and so I took him up on his offer. I went down there and told him everything that happend and finally stated that I was not going back to that school.. I half expected a Fine than go home response which would of been fine too but no all he said was. I know how you feel, and told me he would change me into a differnt school... A Different School,, I have been trying to change schools for the longest time, I have went to everyone and no one did aything for me and the one person I should of gone too was my counselor and he was changing schools for me. I could of almost jumped out of my seat because I was so happy. What was the worst day ended up taking every stress.. every problem and lifting it off my shoulders.

I just found out today that I will be in a differnt school Thursday. I am going to St. Josephs gymnasium. Its an all girls school,,, I know, I know I thought the same thing too an all girls school how boring. But the more I think about it... I wont have to worry about my hair, or makeup, or even fashion really I wont need to impress anyone there because the only reason I go through all that stuff is because there are guys in the school but girls... pshhh no way I need to get all pampered up for them. It could be a really good thing going to an all girls school..... I know Abby is probably cringing at the idea of no boys in school, but I dont think it will be to bad.

I felt so happy about my change that I almost forgot that I am leaving the two exchange students back at my old school. Filipe is okay with anything, I barely see him that much in school and we can always hang out after... but poor Jordan is going through the exact same thing I am. Not to such a full extent as me but still.

I hope that everything goes okay with this one... I mean hey 3rd times a charm right? :/